Lately I have been struggling with the rights and wrongs of the world and decisions that I make and that are made around me.
Since becoming a "believer/follower" I always try to live my life and make decisions on the word or the truth that God has written in the Bible...I often think about (I know you have all heard this before) but, WHAT WOULD JESUS DO?!?
This could be the question you ask yourself when you see a homeless person or a person struggling to carry something and trying to open a door...do you help or not.
But what do you do when life throws you a curve ball, something that is a real test of your character..."the stuff that you are made of". When you fill yourself up with what his desire, the answer is simple...follow after him and you will know the truth and the answer to your curve ball. But when fear, anger, frustration, doubt etc...fills you up...well...all craziness happens. You become someone other than who you and most importantly God wants you to be. I guess it is not the curve ball that I should be worried about, but am I being honoring to God while I am playing the game.
I think that Satan sends his workers to stir things up, sometimes I feel like he is sitting in a lounge chair eating popcorn watching my life play out like a movie for his entertainment...saying, "Watch this part...wait to you see how she handles this"...laughing and getting enjoyment out of when I fall.
"Those who seek the truth will find it and live by it...those who don't seek the truth will find no truth but their own."
I thought this saying so fit about the truths that we seek after...It is clear to me that if you are always seeking after him...you may fail and struggle but you know that your heart is still following after him and HIS truths, but if GOD is NOT your compass that you create your own rules and make your truth the law that you live by.
I know none of this probably makes any sense. But, just something on my mind...
This blog was created as a journal for myself, friends and others to see my updates about family and the daily struggles of life after losing a child. Hopefully this blog will offer comfort and spiritual support for those struggling with the grief of losing a child or loved one.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
Remember
October 9-15th is Baby Loss Awareness week...as observed by the United Kingdom...on the 15th at 7pm...those who have lost a child are asked to light a candle for 1 hour in remembrance and participate in the "Wave of Light". I don't live in the UK...but I thought that this would be a special way to honor out little ones...just the thought that the heavens can see a wave of little lights flickering across the earth as an act of love and remembrance gives me goosebumps...
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