I have definitely been slowing down on my Blogging frequency of entries...sometimes I think I have TOOOOO much going on in my head to write about any ONE thing.
This winter was brutal and long...so I was not able to get out to the cemetery barely at all...Before this last couple of weeks weather warm up...there was a 3-4foot drift right over his headstone and no possible way to make it there to scoop it off...talk about guilt as to not being able to do those little things, the only things that I can do to be a mommy to him. Crazy I know...but I gave up years ago trying to figure out my emotions and/when/why I feel certain ways...they are what they are and I have little control or reasoning to them...grief does weird things to you.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
His gifts of HOPE
God always gives you what you need when you need it...that is for sure.
Winter has been long...way to long, and my spirits have been down...no sun, cold weather, and busy life makes me one tired, and worn-out gal...and still struggling with my Iron levels so that adds to the tiredness.
We also have heard news that someone we know will need to have surgery soon. Which just has made me feel helpless and sad. But HE once again fills me with his hope.
Not saying it was a "sign" but I do know that GOD is in control of ALL his creatures and happened to place this one in my path.
On the way back from town yesterday...an eagle flew right over us...WOW...what an amazing sight...you may be thinking...so..who cares...but eagles are special to me. After our son died...one crisp and EARLY morning, my husband had woken me up to show me the eagle in our neighbors tree. As it flew over us, you could feel the true power and mightiness of the beautiful creature. AND a HOPE for something that we can't truly touch or control...LIFE on this earth. So when I saw the eagle yesterday, it was truly a gift and reminder in HIS power, love and sign of HOPE. HOPE in everything, not just when you get your way or a prayer answered, but especially when you don't. He and only he knows what the best plan to every request is.
Isaiah 40:31 (New International Version)
31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Winter has been long...way to long, and my spirits have been down...no sun, cold weather, and busy life makes me one tired, and worn-out gal...and still struggling with my Iron levels so that adds to the tiredness.
We also have heard news that someone we know will need to have surgery soon. Which just has made me feel helpless and sad. But HE once again fills me with his hope.
Not saying it was a "sign" but I do know that GOD is in control of ALL his creatures and happened to place this one in my path.
On the way back from town yesterday...an eagle flew right over us...WOW...what an amazing sight...you may be thinking...so..who cares...but eagles are special to me. After our son died...one crisp and EARLY morning, my husband had woken me up to show me the eagle in our neighbors tree. As it flew over us, you could feel the true power and mightiness of the beautiful creature. AND a HOPE for something that we can't truly touch or control...LIFE on this earth. So when I saw the eagle yesterday, it was truly a gift and reminder in HIS power, love and sign of HOPE. HOPE in everything, not just when you get your way or a prayer answered, but especially when you don't. He and only he knows what the best plan to every request is.
Isaiah 40:31 (New International Version)
31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Thought for today
Have a thought for today…not my own thought of course...” borrowed “ it from our pastors sermon, just added a little to it.
Live in the truth and the light of the LORD..not the darkness of sin and evil…Satan is nocteral and delights in your darkness.
Live in the truth and the light of the LORD..not the darkness of sin and evil…Satan is nocteral and delights in your darkness.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
When I started my blog and was looking for the right name to entitle it..."Bring it to HIM" was the perfect choice...that is what I had been doing to survive this grief journey after loosing our son and baby "K". I was giving it ALL to him...my pain, sorrow, anger, worry, weakness, all my sin, and all the other feelings that were in the whirlwind of pain that was consuming my heart. I placed these all at his feet and with a loving and merciful heart he took them ALL.
But since then, he is helping me mature in my faith. And I feel that Bring it to HIM has so much more meaning now. Bring him your PRAISE, so others can see who you credit for your blessings and happiness...Yes we live in a broken world...and lots of things that are terrible happen...so hold tight to him when you are suffering but don't forget to acknowledge the one who walks along side you during these trials...GOD the father...and who pulls you out of the trial by your hand...stronger and having a better understanding of his love for you...GOD the father.
So I bring HIM...my LOVE, and Praise...Bring him my trust that everything from the way I look, to the destructive decisions that I have made, the sorrow that I have suffered is all part of his divine plan to refine my FAITH in HIM...he is an awesome GOD...credit him for pulling you out of the valley and when he places you on the mountain top...Glory be to GOD in ALL things!!!!
But since then, he is helping me mature in my faith. And I feel that Bring it to HIM has so much more meaning now. Bring him your PRAISE, so others can see who you credit for your blessings and happiness...Yes we live in a broken world...and lots of things that are terrible happen...so hold tight to him when you are suffering but don't forget to acknowledge the one who walks along side you during these trials...GOD the father...and who pulls you out of the trial by your hand...stronger and having a better understanding of his love for you...GOD the father.
So I bring HIM...my LOVE, and Praise...Bring him my trust that everything from the way I look, to the destructive decisions that I have made, the sorrow that I have suffered is all part of his divine plan to refine my FAITH in HIM...he is an awesome GOD...credit him for pulling you out of the valley and when he places you on the mountain top...Glory be to GOD in ALL things!!!!
Monday, December 28, 2009
Happy Birthday Sweet Boy
Happy 5th Birthday big guy...can't believe it has been 5 whole years since you entered and exited our lives all in the same moment. You left so suddenly that we didn't even get to really know you. I can only imagine the great young man that you have become in heaven. Today is filled with all the thoughts of what could have beens'...the snuggles, the belly laughs, the lazy Saturday mornings in bed watching cartoons and yes even the moments that you would be placed in time outs...crazy I know...but I miss even those. I really don't wonder what you would look like...I look at your brother and sister and that give me some idea of your beautiful face...but I also know...you would be you. I wish I could fly to heaven even for a moment to sneak a kiss and hug. I would meet you on the corner of a star and embrace you with all the love I have stored up for you all these years...and in one moment, you would know all that you have meant to me...
Happy birthday my guy...loving you so much...and praying GOD is throwing you an amazing celebration with his presence.
Loving you to the moon and the stars...
Mommy
Happy birthday my guy...loving you so much...and praying GOD is throwing you an amazing celebration with his presence.
Loving you to the moon and the stars...
Mommy
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Merry CHRISTmas
Wanting you wish you all a Merry CHRISTmas. Know the holiday season is always difficult when you have a loved one who is not with you any longer. It brings a flood of memories which are happy in nature but in reality brings great grief since the memories are just that...and you can no longer talk, touch or laugh with the one you loved so much. Praying that GOD will ease your hearts and comfort you. Also, be hopeful...that GOD is wanting you to remember the reason for the Christmas holiday...CHRIST...his only son came to us. It is not the Christmas cards(no mine did NOT get out again this year) or the cookies made, the presents bought and wrapped. Or the presents that we recieved...no MP3, sweater or toy under the tree can compare to the greatest gift. Jesus! This is HIS birthday...and we should celebrate it as that.
Praying that all of you remember to rejoice in the one and only KING...John 3:16
Praying that all of you remember to rejoice in the one and only KING...John 3:16
Thursday, November 19, 2009
The POWER in you!
Ok...I have been convicted by a friend that I needed to write a post, since it has been a while....(thanks J. so here we go).
Right how our church is going through Ephesians. Paul has a way of writing great letters to his friends in Christ. Last week was verses Ephesians 1:15-23...crib note version...
"The power that conquered the grave...lives in me!" (Powerful stuff)
I have "meditated" on this a lot this week...so many times I again start to think that I can do things on my own and don't need to "bother" God with my issues or prayers.(but I think he already has an idea of what they are..ha.haa)
But then I remember that God sent the Holy Spirit to live within me...and THAT power lives in me...I feel like I am not doing things alone and that my biggest fan is helping...and that anything; any trial or suffering is possible to overcome because the power of Christ lives in ME(and you too!) ...and with that ANYTHING is possible.
As we are approaching the Holidays, this is usually when I begin to dread Elijah's delivery day. But for some reason I have great peace about it this year, I don't want you to think that I still don't have great grief about him not being here or that I have "gotten over it" or have forgotten the could-have-beens with him in our lives...but the hard fact is, life does go on, and I have started to move along side it once again. I have started to see the impact of Elijah in our lives( I will post about this at a later date...be watching) if even for a short time and the unimaginable journey that GOD has placed before me, even through the lost of Elijah, nothing I ever would have wished for, but to tell you the truth:
GOD is good in ALL things...
Ephisians 1:18-19
18I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, 19and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength,
As some of you are struggling with many trials in your life or are struggling to become a believer or not blame God for the trials that this broken world throws your way...also read
Ephisians 2:8-10
8For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9not by works, so that no one can boast. 10For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
He has called out...with ownership to you...THIS ONE IS MINE...
Right how our church is going through Ephesians. Paul has a way of writing great letters to his friends in Christ. Last week was verses Ephesians 1:15-23...crib note version...
"The power that conquered the grave...lives in me!" (Powerful stuff)
I have "meditated" on this a lot this week...so many times I again start to think that I can do things on my own and don't need to "bother" God with my issues or prayers.(but I think he already has an idea of what they are..ha.haa)
But then I remember that God sent the Holy Spirit to live within me...and THAT power lives in me...I feel like I am not doing things alone and that my biggest fan is helping...and that anything; any trial or suffering is possible to overcome because the power of Christ lives in ME(and you too!) ...and with that ANYTHING is possible.
As we are approaching the Holidays, this is usually when I begin to dread Elijah's delivery day. But for some reason I have great peace about it this year, I don't want you to think that I still don't have great grief about him not being here or that I have "gotten over it" or have forgotten the could-have-beens with him in our lives...but the hard fact is, life does go on, and I have started to move along side it once again. I have started to see the impact of Elijah in our lives( I will post about this at a later date...be watching) if even for a short time and the unimaginable journey that GOD has placed before me, even through the lost of Elijah, nothing I ever would have wished for, but to tell you the truth:
GOD is good in ALL things...
Ephisians 1:18-19
18I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, 19and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength,
As some of you are struggling with many trials in your life or are struggling to become a believer or not blame God for the trials that this broken world throws your way...also read
Ephisians 2:8-10
8For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9not by works, so that no one can boast. 10For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
He has called out...with ownership to you...THIS ONE IS MINE...
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