The POWER in you!

Ok...I have been convicted by a friend that I needed to write a post, since it has been a while....(thanks J. so here we go).

Right how our church is going through Ephesians. Paul has a way of writing great letters to his friends in Christ. Last week was verses Ephesians 1:15-23...crib note version...

"The power that conquered the grave...lives in me!" (Powerful stuff)

I have "meditated" on this a lot this week...so many times I again start to think that I can do things on my own and don't need to "bother" God with my issues or prayers.(but I think he already has an idea of what they are..ha.haa)
But then I remember that God sent the Holy Spirit to live within me...and THAT power lives in me...I feel like I am not doing things alone and that my biggest fan is helping...and that anything; any trial or suffering is possible to overcome because the power of Christ lives in ME(and you too!) ...and with that ANYTHING is possible.
As we are approaching the Holidays, this is usually when I begin to dread Elijah's delivery day. But for some reason I have great peace about it this year, I don't want you to think that I still don't have great grief about him not being here or that I have "gotten over it" or have forgotten the could-have-beens with him in our lives...but the hard fact is, life does go on, and I have started to move along side it once again. I have started to see the impact of Elijah in our lives( I will post about this at a later date...be watching) if even for a short time and the unimaginable journey that GOD has placed before me, even through the lost of Elijah, nothing I ever would have wished for, but to tell you the truth:

GOD is good in ALL things...


Ephisians 1:18-19
18I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, 19and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength,


As some of you are struggling with many trials in your life or are struggling to become a believer or not blame God for the trials that this broken world throws your way...also read

Ephisians 2:8-10
8For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9not by works, so that no one can boast. 10For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

He has called out...with ownership to you...THIS ONE IS MINE...

Right or wrong

Lately I have been struggling with the rights and wrongs of the world and decisions that I make and that are made around me.

Since becoming a "believer/follower" I always try to live my life and make decisions on the word or the truth that God has written in the Bible...I often think about (I know you have all heard this before) but, WHAT WOULD JESUS DO?!?
This could be the question you ask yourself when you see a homeless person or a person struggling to carry something and trying to open a door...do you help or not.
But what do you do when life throws you a curve ball, something that is a real test of your character..."the stuff that you are made of". When you fill yourself up with what his desire, the answer is simple...follow after him and you will know the truth and the answer to your curve ball. But when fear, anger, frustration, doubt etc...fills you up...well...all craziness happens. You become someone other than who you and most importantly God wants you to be. I guess it is not the curve ball that I should be worried about, but am I being honoring to God while I am playing the game.
I think that Satan sends his workers to stir things up, sometimes I feel like he is sitting in a lounge chair eating popcorn watching my life play out like a movie for his entertainment...saying, "Watch this part...wait to you see how she handles this"...laughing and getting enjoyment out of when I fall.

"Those who seek the truth will find it and live by it...those who don't seek the truth will find no truth but their own."

I thought this saying so fit about the truths that we seek after...It is clear to me that if you are always seeking after him...you may fail and struggle but you know that your heart is still following after him and HIS truths, but if GOD is NOT your compass that you create your own rules and make your truth the law that you live by.

I know none of this probably makes any sense. But, just something on my mind...

Remember

October 9-15th is Baby Loss Awareness week...as observed by the United Kingdom...on the 15th at 7pm...those who have lost a child are asked to light a candle for 1 hour in remembrance and participate in the "Wave of Light". I don't live in the UK...but I thought that this would be a special way to honor out little ones...just the thought that the heavens can see a wave of little lights flickering across the earth as an act of love and remembrance gives me goosebumps...

GOD is Good

Hello all...hope you are having a great Fall. Hard to believe that Summer is over. In one of my last posts about Healing a Broken Heart...I didn't know how true it would all be when I wrote it...(surrounding yourself with others that are suffering trials and have broken hearts). Since then a friend has approached me about helping her with a biblical support group for mothers who have lost a child(ren) at any stage...as a mirror of a group that is in a surrounding town...many emails have gone back and forth with the original group and it looks like it may all be "in the works". WOW...his timing...is always...his timing. Though I would rather have my little babies with me...Sometimes I think that this is the role that they were to play all along in my life...not physically being here everyday...but the impact so important and intimately special, none the less. I ask you all for prayer that if this is how God wants me to serve him that he will make it happen. And if not, he will lead me down another road to serve him and shout his glory to all that will listen.

His beauty

Here are some of my pics from our Colorado trip...and a few beautiful surprises once we got home..the ones that turned out are Gods doing not mine...

How to heal a broken heart.

As I continue on my journey that God has set before me...I continue to struggle with a broken heart of missing my little ones and yearning for more to add laughter into this already loud and silly house...I have found a few things that have begun to heal my heart. This may sound "bad" but one way to start to heal is to surround yourself with other that are also in pain and need help or assistance in some way. You may gain a lot of comfort and great friendships may blossom from this connection, there truly is ALWAYS someone who is hurting and grieving more than you. But as he reminds me over and over again..."it is not all about you-it is about me and my kingdom".
I have tried to help others in different ways the last few years...just the knowing that someone is being helped from a small action that I do...is all for HIM...I have just decided that as a stranger may benefit from the time or item that I donate...I am truly doing it to honor my KING...he has given me so much.
Last week our church went through Matthew 25:35.... WOW...huge thump on the head for me...God himself could have been standing in front of me saying..."are there limits of what you will do for ME!"
Challenge for the week(or more )do kind acts for those around you or a total stranger...it will create a ripple affect and others will benefit from one act of kindness...ideas:

Pay for the meal of the person behind you in the drive through...be prepared that they may be getting lunch for the whole office...not that that happened...ha...ha....or drop something off at the food pantry or homeless shelter in your area...YES...you have one...you just need to find it. Or donate school supplies to the local school.

It is funny that something a simple as getting a hair cut can bring up the memory and name of Elijah...you can tell people who have suffered grief before in their life...they ask question after question..without judgement of how you answer.
As I was getting my yearly hair cut(and my guy and gal were being patient;0) the stylist started asking questions about me ...are we done having kids, why so many years between them...and the dreaded question how many do I have. I usually say two. Just seems to make people feel bad when you tell them the whole story. But it was how she asked...like she knew something was "up". So I nicely said...well I have been blessed to be pregnant 4 times, but God blessed me even more with the two he let me keep for now. (and I didn't even cry-yeah me) I can't believe he gave me the words. He is great that way. If you are reading this and know of someone who has suffered a loss of any kind, husband, wife, child, parent, friend...please ask them questions about their loved one. I always have a great feeling of love and little glimpse of parenting Elijah when I get to say his name or talk about him, if even for a second.
Hoping to post some pictures of our Colorado trip. I always feel close to God...but something special about praying in the mountains...it is awesome.